Dad's Day

This is by far the strangest feeling Father's Day I've ever had. That's probably because my biological dad isn't speaking to me. I sent him an e-card early this morning. So far I haven't yet gotten the email confirmation that he's read it.

I haven't actually spoken with my dad since last Christmas night. That probably sounds really sad, but its kind of normal as far as our relationship goes. We have very similar viewpoints on things in life, and yet the differences, though minuscule, prove to be too much for either of us to handle. I hope I don't come off sounding reserved to the fact of accepting this, it actually really bums me out. I just don't know how to fix it at this point. I really am at a loss as of what to do. So I send an e-card.

At the same time I'm very thankful for having my step-dad in my life. Its almost like I'm given a second go-around. A do-over. If he's happy with me maybe I'm not such a bad daughter after all. I didn't get to see him today either though. We did speak on the phone. He was making turkey burgers for himself and my mom.

Mark and I called my father-in-law a few hours ago to wish him a happy Father's Day. We weren't quite on top of things enough this week to get a card out on time. I don't think he minded. He really loves us and just really loves to hear from us, no matter through which means. He's had such a hard year. The French bought out the company he works for and laid off a lot of employees. This change more than tripled my father-in-law's work load. He rarely gets a day off...maybe one every few weeks. He was off today though. Apparently the French believe in Father's Day. I really love my father-in-law. He and my mother-in-law are some of the most amazing parents I have ever known. I've been very blessed to marry into that family.

Today was also the first time my mind began to wander about what it will be like to celebrate Father's Day with Mark. Man, he's gonna be such a good dad. I wonder if he thought about it at all today?

Well, all in all, I'll be kind of glad when Father's Day is over this year. Its just kind of a confusing, mixed-up-feeling kind of day. At least I know I can say that I'm blessed to have all of these men in my life. What do girls do with only the one dad? Doing it my way definitely isn't boring.